Today I started my YouTube channel and posted my first video. The main thing holding me back from doing this (for years) is my tendency to get caught up in small things like numbers.
Subscribers, views and likes are often an unfortunate depiction of validation and approval, so when such numbers are low it takes a toll on my confidence.
I don’t want the world to potentially see that no one cares about what I’m doing! It calls the relevance of my actions into question, even though this shouldn’t be the case. Ideally, I should be doing things for myself and not for approval!
Nonetheless, the channel has been launched. I need to focus on making videos, something I really enjoy doing. And I need to have fun with it because fun is what got me here in the first place.
Anyway in true youtuber fashion, here’s the link to my channel and my first video!:
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