At the gate of it all, I can see what I’m about to step in to: a life of distraction from what I really feel. I don’t want to join that crowd.
A long time ago, I wrote down somewhere that it’s in the biggest crowds that we realise how lonely we are. I’m sure I’d heard it before, but that was the first time I really felt it.
And I feel like that all the time – so many people do. However most of the time, we are so distracted that we feel like it’s not there anymore, or like it didn’t exist in the first place. But, all it takes is for the feeling to be triggered by anything to remind us that nothing has really changed. So how much time are we going to spend being distracted from what we are really feeling?
I call them “base feelings”. Those of loneliness, sadness, anxiety, the lot. And I wonder if they ever really go away. It seems that the majority of the time, the world is successful at taking our mind off these deep emotions.
The question is then, should we allow ourselves to be knowingly distracted, or should we try hard to get rid of our base feelings?
At the gate of it all, I can see what I’m about to step in to: a life of distraction from what I really feel. I don’t want to join that crowd. You can ask yourself if you want to join as well.
And if you feel the need to work on these base feelings and the things that fly around your mind when you’re alone and no longer on a high, fulfil that need. Try to improve before you get too used to it. I don’t want to be chronically lonely, sad or anxious;
I want to be better. That’s a good thing.